Sweet Uncertainty
Pushing through the water, feeling the glide and the swing of my stroke. I can see a group of swimmers off to my right where I'm sighting, but I know they're being pulled by the tide. I know I need to stay left to stay straight, avoid being pushed into the bay. There are jellies all around me, they're beautiful, hanging in the water, some pulsing themselves along. I feel strong and fast... I come out of the water and stop my watch: 1 hour, 59 seconds. What? How on earth...?! That's 26 minutes faster than last year! On my bike, and I'm yo-yoing on the hills with another rider. I pass her downhill, hold the gap on the flat, and she rides past me uphill. We're evenly matched overall, and we share chat and encouragement along the way. I feel great, like I'm flying... I walk through the hall, not wanting to speak to anyone, resisting making eye contact. I have never felt so broken in my life. I see Alan standing by...